Life has a way of marching on despite the adversity we experience from time to time. It seems to be the month for stress in my life. My husband had a heart attack and my 81 year old dad had triple bypass surgery. Hmmmmm, do you think life only gives us what we can handle?
I used to use that saying alot until now. Now, I think I have more than I can handle. I tried to remain in my own skin during these difficult times and be true to myself. I found myself "using" my skin as a blanket, a place to hide and protect me from the outside world. Maybe if I hid it wouldn't hurt so much, maybe if I stayed safe I wouldn't lose control.
That has ramifications down the road. Now it is affecting me, the hiding, the running away from my feelings, the non-disclosure to friends and family about my true feelings and how these major occurences in my life have affected me deep down inside.
I must leave the safety of my skin, peel the old away, and let the real, true me just be. Cry when I need to, outwardly if I need to, laugh when I need to, sleep when I need to and put some time aside for me when I need to. If we are not good for ourselves, how can we be there for those we love, our family, our friends?
Ahhhh, the journey continues........
