well, I'm back. It has been a while since I have written, lots going on. A husband healing, a dad healing, a son in recovery and healing, and now this time is for me and for all of you who are reading my blog.
As we journey on through life we are faced with what really makes us happy. What makes us feel so good that we become the "twirlers" of our own lives? I am at that very place right now, the place of self-discovery, the place of truth. There comes a time in each of our lives where we must be the person we were born to be.
Are you sitting behind a desk asking yourself what you are doing there? I am, and I know that I am NOT living in my own skin. But I can reflect upon a time when I was. I remember standing in a room full of wonderful people, mentoring to them as they continued their weight loss journey. I used to think I was helping them and maybe I was, but as I reflect upon it now, 12 years later, I realize that it was I who was being shown the way. That experience showed me that my place, the place I could feel "purpose" in was in front of all those people. I was reaching them, I could see the sparkle in their eyes, I could feel it in their laughter, I could feel it inside myself. THAT was my purpose, the communicator, the relationship builder, the facilitator. The magic lied there in front of my face and inside my heart and soul. Only I didn't see it until now. So my purpose will become reborn again. I am going back to the world of motivational speaking, of reaching out to those who need to feel "purpose."
Tell me what you think.....
About Me
- "Live in your own skin"
- My name is Anita and I created this Blog to begin a journey of exploration about myself. I love the phrase, “Living in your own skin” What does that mean? How often in life do we live in someone else’s skin? I used to think that the key to life was to have it all, the best job, the best house, a “million” friends and the perfect life. I am here to say I was wrong about all of that. I don’t need most of that to be happy, to experience life. Because quite frankly, when my life is over 50 years or so from now it won’t be important that anyone remembers me for those insignificant things. I realize now that I only care that they remember me for how I made them feel. I want to bring out the “twirler” in all of us. You know, the child who stands in the middle of the field with arms out like a plane and twirls around and around with the wind blowing in their hair.Think back to how that used to make you feel and begin to twirl again. So I encourage you to share your thoughts and comments about what it means to you to “Live in your own skin” I look forward to hearing from you and maybe together, we will figure it out.
I'm constantly addressing who i am, i've never really found out. Every time i become comfortable with myself, something happens and i lose someone or something goes wrong and i feel like i'm hopeless again. I've been consistently depressed about not knowing who i am, where i'm going, all thats happened to me, and that really ended up with me having multiple suicide attempts and years of self-harm geared thoughts. My friends had continued to help me through this, but there came a time when i thought it really had reached its breaking point. I've been getting better, but i've also been growing more distant from the people i know. Its because the closer i am to people, the easier it is for me to become depressed. Its a double-edged sword, i don't know which one i'd prefer, so in a way it bothers me to live in my own skin.
ReplyDeletethank you so much for sharing your thoughts with me. Living in our own skin forces us to be vulnerable to the world. We have stripped away the mask and appear only as we are. There is a freedom that comes from the stripping away of the personalities we are to others, only to become exactly who we are. I wish you strength in your journey to become all that you are meant to be and the wisdom to know that just by who you are, you are a gift to the world...
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