Recently my husband had a heart attack. At the moment I realized it was happening the world took on a different meaning. Would I lose someone I was connected to for 30 years? Would life as I knew it change forever? Would I be able to live in my own skin while taking care of others?
All of these questions swam through my mind at a considerably eccelerated rate and I was and still am unsure about how to proceed. Am I brave enough to travel the road ahead while dealing with the changes my husband and family will have to go through? Will I be able to be true to who I am, taking care of me, nurturing my needs while making sure that he is healing?
Do we go through life being "something" for others but not enough for ourselves? Do we get to the end of our lives and wonder if we actually knew who we were? And did we become the person we always wanted to be or was it too hard to be true to only ourselves?
I would be so interested to know how you, my friend and reader of this blog have handled a crisis in life and whether you lost yourself to it, or remained true and authentic. Did you in fact live in your own skin?
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You are brave. You will pull though. His healing is up to him but your family has so much to live for and so much love to go around you just need to be honest and say what you need. I'm so proud of you Anita. Watching you balance everyone's needs and keeping your integrity and humour in tact. You are quite an inspiration. Keep up the posting! Keep up the blog. I'll keep reading.
ReplyDeleteIsn't it interesting how we generally just go through life without being too mindful until something happens to shake us up and change the routine ? And, Bud, you know that I can totally relate to that, considering my life changing challenges.
ReplyDeleteOne thing that has struck me : when all the crap is falling down on our heads and we feel like standing in the middle of the road, looking up to the sky and shouting,"Ok,
just let me have it all and stop already !"
and we feel like giving up and starting our lives over again ~ we realize that we can't just give up. We have to push on and give it another try.
You really said it all about it not being about the "stuff". It is about how you affect the world around you, realizing that other people have misery as well ( usually worse than yours ! ), and being real.
Keep on keepin' on, my sweet sister. I'll be here for you just as you have always been there for me.